For an adult on the autism spectrum, with 90s childhood autism trauma and andhedonia, I should be very happy. I am a software engineer. That’s what my mom and therapists thought was the best possible outcome.

However, I find myself really disconnected from l…

More details: I’m trans, 35f.I’m very scared and worried I won’t be able to keep doing my job very long. I’m also neglecting my health and body, almost more out of self loathing and nihilism rather t…